I can't tolerate this anymore!!!

April 26,2010 Monday....

The week starts again, I'm expecting that the whole week will be full of stress cause i always feel it naman eh dahil during weekdays a lot of customers are calling to complain as usual. Actually i had a great timewith yuyan and his family. In fact i spent my sunday and half day of monday sa house nila. Making a lot of sweet moments and so on..

That time i decided to go home kasi di na approve yung schedule ni yuyan. actually he supposed to trade his shift to one of our collegues but sad to say it was not apporved by the RTR kaya ayun we should follow the same schedule as last week.. I went home full of expectations na maayos na sa bahay. At first mejo ok naman but on my great surprise i was like a volcano who just blown out dahil sa nakita ko on my closet. Actually ok lang kung maayos sya pagdating ko eh but it was really annoying to know na naka lock na nga yun pero they still do the same thing na lagi na lang nila ginagawa sa mga gamit ko. I'm not selfish not share my things with my brothers but i really dont like na even my personal hygiene staff eh pinapakialamanan na nila. I'm the kind of person who know how to tolerate things but when i know that it's already abusing i really tend to freak out .

Because of my anger, as in so much anger kasi talagang sagad na yung timpi ko, all my photos posted on the door of my closet, lahat yun napunit ko because i know that it's the only way to release my burden inside kasi sawa na din ako to talk to them reminding them not to do this and not to do that.. waaahhh!! i already lose my temper!! eventually i said to myself na sana di na pala ako umuwi cause it just took my happiness away kasi while i'm on yuyan's house i really dont feel the stress but then nung umuwi ako nafeel ko yun kasi talagang nakakainis yun ganun na palagi na lang nila ginagawa sa akin yun.. but by the way that's life and that's my evryday life when i'm at home...

I went to work full of burden cause i really feel that i'm not being respected by my brothers.If only i can leave them and just live by myself i think matagal ko na ginawa yun. but i dont want to do that cause i consider my mom. My mom is actually the only reason why i keep coming back at home. She's the only reason why i stay at home kasi talagang i have to help her cause without her i was not here. I always bear in my mind na sila pa rin ni papa yung reason why nakapag aral ako kahit 2 years lang sa college. I appreacite all the hardships that they sacrificed for me during my study years and walang sawa ko sila tutulungan as much as i can.

It's really hard to know na kung sino pa yung ibang tao sila pa yung mas nakakaunawa sa kin.Sometimes i wonder if my three brothers are just unconcious or they're just pathetic?? kasi nakukuha pa nila magbisyo ng ganun though they know na wala na nga silang natutulong sa house. ok lng sana if they dont have work for now pero sana naman they should learn how to help my mother out even through helping her doing the hoisehold chores. But that's not what happen kasi they went home usually at 4am in the afternoon hanging out with their barkadas. and of course my mother was bothered and worried kapag ganun na sila umuuwi and because of that she never had a good sleep. That's what they do almost everyday and eventually turned to their habit.

Mahirap na talagang magjudge as of now. I tried not to make any comment but i cant cause i know that what they do is already out of the good zone.A ng akin lang sana just open their mind and most especially their heart cause the will come na mamwala sa amin si mama and i dont want to reach that point na aasa na lang sila ng aasa. It's no longer right cause they are already young adults and they should know what to do!! HAYS hirap talga ng ganito..


For now the best thing which i know i can do is to set those things aside and keep silent!!! Stupid but i just want to ignore it and as much as possible not let those things affect my whole being!!!

what a que!!

ridiculous and disgusting que of calls

april 21,2010.

I Really found this day as the most tiring and disgusting work day cause i had a lot of calls na talagang nakakainis personally
kasi ang daming complaints regarding the tech no show.i have so many customers who demanded a lot of things which are already out
of my control as an agent.I'm JuST Wondering why those canadian customers didnt realize that it just our job to take calls and just
doing what we are trained for. pero this day was so nasty and very untolerable. To be honest with, i just realize how hard the job of
a call center agent is.I JusT thought i was hired just to take calls and help the customer out but it's not the issue. sometimes customer
tends to hit me below the belt. they thought that it's always our fault but the truth is it's not!!! Minsan nga i tend to have a self pity
kasi parang iniisip ko kung tama bang nandito ako sa ganitong klase ng work?? pero on the bright side iniisip ko na lang na im lucky enough
na ksi i used to receive a very good compensation from my company and besides facilities and management are good enough unlike my previous work
so maswerte na rin. and isa pa kung wala ako dito sa ganitong work i might not meet my love one... YUYAN..

inspite of those ridiculous calls i still have the reason to smile and to move on. YUng reason na yun. sa totoo lang eh napaka halaga sa akin.
personally ang laki ng naitutulong nya sa akin especially if i feel bored and upset cause of the customer na masyadong demanding.minsan nga
di ko lang masabi kung gaano ako kaligaya kapag nakikita ko syang naka smile and dahil dun nawawala yung bigat ng work ko

Satisfying Memoirs!!!!

I celebrated my good Friday with of course my love yuyan. After my shift I went to their house right away. Actually that day was so amazing and very overwhelming kasi parang di ako iba sa kanila. Yuyan’s mom was so caring and I really appreciate it kasi talagang ramdam ko yung concern nya sa akin. Syempre di naman magiging Masaya ang lahat without my yuyan. Yuyan always makes me happy in everything na ginagawa nya. Ewan ko ba bakit mahal na mahal ko si yuyan. Sa bawat araw na dumadaan lalo ko syang minamahal ng higit pa sa alam nya.

During that day mejo nakatulog ako ng kaunti kasi I never had a sleep yet dahil sa kanila agad ako dumeretso. Ang sarap talga ng pakiramdam na kasama ko si yuyan ng buong maghapon. Talking to each other,glancing to his very ravishing eyes at higit sa lahat hugging him as many as I can. Hhihihi

Good Friday is I think the most interesting part of holy week in binangonan because everybody wants to see the prusisyon. I never thought na ganung kahaba yun cause I’m not used it. Actually mejo napagid ako after that kasi I am the one who took the videos and on my surprise the most climactic part of the event happened. They called it as “ gewang-gewang”. I don’t expect na ganun pala yung part nay un. As if parang madadaganan na kami cause the saint was lifted up by many men who all wear white tshirts na kala mu nag aagwan sa santo. All I can say is a big big wah!!!! I told yuyan na kapag nagpatuloy pa yun baka lumusot na ako sa ilalim para lang maka iwas na madaganan ako. Hehehe duwag lang ^_^

We went home after that and talagang I was really got tired of that event but it was actually good and I had fun to be honest with. Yun lang mejo nabothered ako kasi daddi didn’t know that I would go sleepover to their house that night. Wala na sayng nagawa cause it was to late in the evening na. Actually natakot ako kasi nagsungit yung dad nya but yuyan used to remind me na ganun talaga si dad kaya madali naman akong naka get over. Sayang nga lang at nabiti ang kulitan naming ni mahal pero sa totoo lang masayang Masaya ako sa kasama ko say sa room nay though we’re not sleeping together pero ok lang basta Makita ko na say im ok na.
Good Friday is good kasi I finally found the real one that I will love forevermore!!!


To yuyan ko!!!

Alam mo poh I can honestly say na Masaya kang kasama and I never doubted na Masaya ako na ikaw ang minahal ko. Gusto ko malaman mu na I’m glad that you came into my life. Maswerte nga ako kasi sayo ko nakita yung true love that I always look forward. Yuyan sana kaw na habang buhay kahit anu mangyari I will never give you up. I will love you more and I will treasure every moments that I had with you. Mahal na mahal kita and lagi mu poh yun tatandaan hane!!!

I love you yuyan koh!!! Miss na miss na kita!!!!